Perplexed

There are people who are very much in tune with their body. I have met people who can pinpoint the (good or bad) effects of some new supplement they started taking. They can tell you which food caused them stomach trouble. They can tell you how something in their routine caused them to feel a bit off. I am not one of them.

I can tell you that I feel like crap. Most of the time. Some remarkable days, when the afternoon comes, I start wondering “Maybe I didn’t sleep well?” In no way am I in tune with my body. I just live in here.

I had a good friend in my youth who gave me some bodybuilding magazines. They were meant to be an inspiration. He was, and probably still is, in very good shape. I just didn’t know what to do with the magazines.

The Cycle

I can move weights. I remember once in Spain, I started going to a gym and I started using their rowing machine. Or it’s not really for rowing, it has the weights and you lift them in a rowing fashion. I ended up maxing the machine out. The personal trainer couldn’t believe her eyes and even called the gym owner to watch. I think the weights in Spain are lighter.

I have gone to the gym on and off in my life. But most often I have felt to see the connection between working out and any results in my body. 

I have a cycle. I start going to the gym. I lift weights and play with those machines. I try to do some reps and sets (whatever they mean). The next day I don’t really feel anything. But, the second day I will be dying of pain. I obviously lifted too much. The next step in my cycle is that it takes me a week to recover. And by that time I have found something better to do with my time.

The Envy

After a half of century living on this earth, I am getting to the point that I would love to be in charge. I would love to be like those guys (and gals) and be able to influence how I feel physically. I would love to feel better.

I know it is cliche, but the new year is coming. It is the time of great resolutions, and many of them are health-related (see this article in Inc. magazine from a couple years back for examples). That is not my motivation, really. But right now I am just wondering. and it happens to be the end of the year, or beginning of the next one.

So, maybe, just maybe, I will do something about my envy this time around.